Bravery

Isn't it funny the effect that bitching someone out can sometimes have on you? I don't know, lately I feel so liberated. I am so tired of hiding who I am or what I am feeling for the sake of someone else. I mean, don't get me wrong, I do think that it is important to be considerate. But when it interferes with your own health, there is a problem. So, then,someone was being a total douche bag, and I turned into a total bitch in return. That one small thing has led to a wonderful experience of exposing myself to a community that I never thought I would have the bravery to face. I spent years running from them, trying to be someone else. Hiding from them because there were so many and they all felt so big that I just needed a sense of myself...of me, my own peace. I needed the "comfort of my own protection"...but now, I'm done running.  I can't live my life in darkness so that I don't hurt someone. I'm going to be me, and you are just going to have to deal with it.